This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. So much going on with John working so many hours, the big tournament on Saturday (with over 600 competitors) and the sudden passing of John's grandmother Frances, who was 90 years old. Yesterday after church I felt it hard to breathe with all the pressure of where to be, what to do, and who to comfort. I was overwhelmed. I felt myself starting to shut down emotionally. Last night I got about 3 hours sleep because my mind was racing. This morning, praise God for the morning, I sat down to read Psalm 100.
1 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
2 Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.
3 Know that the LORD is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his[a];
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture. 4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
5 For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.
This Psalm reminded me that God is much better in control than I am. He is a Big God with broad shoulders, and my job is to just continue to rely on Him for strength, trust his hand, and allow him to be in control. I don't understand so many things that God chooses, but my job isn't to always understand but to just be faithful in the little things. Thank goodness I am not in control of the Big Picture. Today my prayers are for my MIL who has lost her mother, her friend, and the role of care taker all in one instant. My heart truly aches for her loss, because I can't imagine losing my mom. I was so thankful my mom came to the wake with us yesterday. My mom is such a good comforter. She gave us a package of food/and treats for the kids and a card expressing her condolences. I'm so lucky to have her.
I'm thankful that God is always good, his love endures forever and He is faithful. I'm trusting in that.