07 May 2011
Happy Mother's Day
I have such vivid memories of bringing Julia home, all the excitement of dressing her up, and doing her hair, and playing with her were put to the side as I got the reality of caring for a newborn, the late night feedings, the soreness, the the sleep deprivation, worrying every time she sneezed or coughed, asking a million questions of friends and family members. Hoping I was doing it all right, and praying I wouldn't do anything wrong. When you are pregnant for 9 months you just can't wait to meet your son or daughter, and then once they are here you can't wait to get to know them and see what they will do! I remember worrying at each milestone hoping Julia would hurry up and talk or walk, and being so excited for her to roll over or crawl. And forget that first smile! What a treat and sight to behold, and the first laugh, first word. It is all such an incredible gift.
You stare and inspect each little part of them just amazed that this little person was inside of you. And Julia was my kicker, she was always so strong and assertive of her needs and wishes. I couldn't get over her strength and her eyes and her lips.
What an amazing miracle that the two babies I prayed for those 9 months before Julia, my Julia and my Mark would be in our lives so soon. Julia in Dec 2007 and Mark in May 2009.
God what an incredible gift you have allowed us to have, to be mothers. To bear children, to make a family, to say I love you.
To feel safe in the arms of your mom. To hold her and love her, and say thank you for all she has done. Moms sacrifice so much for us. And you don't even realize how much they give up, do without out, don't get to sleep until you become one, and then you realize, and all you want to do is call her Saint Mom for all she has done and put up with, because now you do it and you just get it and understand how hard it was. You start to understand why she looked tired, or was so strict, or made certain rules, because she cared, she loved you.
They allow you to dance, sing silly songs, make mistakes, wear layers of foo foo skirts, and just let your hair down and be yourself.
And sometimes you get to have more than one mom. You have all those moms who don't even realize you look up to them as a mom. Women you admire and look up to because of who they are and what they stand for. Women who love God and put Him first in your life, women who teach you how to do the same. Women who pray with you and cry with you and support you through difficult times, and celebrate with you in the great times.
Mommy, I love you! Happy Mother's Day!
Julia and Marky, Mommy loves you! And I promise to really try to be a good Mommy each day, one day at a time, with God's help! Because sometimes mommy really needs HIS HELP A LOT! But you make my life wonderful, each moment is full and there is never a dull one around here! Thanks for making me a Mommy!