Tired but on the right track...

This morning I wake up proud as I was finally able to use the Ezzo method with Mark. It has taken me a lot longer with Mark. For me to hear him cry and worry about waking up Julia has been a lot tougher than I thought it would. Last night I put him to bed by 9:30 and by 11pm he was already stirring, instead of nursing him like I had been doing to get him back to sleep I tried the pacifier, and it worked...for the past 3 weeks he has rejected the pacifier and it has been a lot of sleepless nights for me. I was at my wits end. But last night I just stayed firm and every time he awoke and I heard him stirring in his bed (surprised he wasn't crying...and surprised I could hear him moving around when he is two doors down the hall) I went to his room and just rubbed his back and put the pacifier aka binky back in. Each time he went back to sleep. This happened about 5-6 times but at least I didn't resort to feeding him because he was getting in a bad habit of nursing all through the night and my body couldn't take it. Thank you Lord for giving me the will and strength. Being a mom to two babies has been so hard. I am trying to hold it all together and do the best that I can. Please, please help me not to fail at motherhood. I've always wanted to be a mom. Some mornings I wake up and I'm just so tired I don't think I can start the whole day all over again. But thankfully, once I look at my children I get a new source of energy and love and I am so happy to be a mom! How can you not be when your children are so cute and lovable? I am praying that we are on the right track with Mark as he gets into a new habit of sleeping through the night again...teething has been rough on him, poor guy.