26 August 2010
What do I do when...I'm so overwhelmed?
Lately, I have been overwhelmed as a mom! I just don't think there are enough hours in the day or that I have enough hands to do all the things I want/need to do in the best way possible.
I feel stretched to the limit and very overwhelmed at certain times in the day. Sometimes, the minute I wake up I am overwhelmed or packing the car and getting the kids ready for an outing, looking at my lesson plans for home schooling, or getting things "just so" before John walks through the door.
A lot of my friends say, "Loosen up Kristi! You need another baby to calm you down!" Oh, my, I'm not sure if having another baby would calm me down at this point. People know that I am a very driven, organized, baracuda type of person. I like things done orderly, planned, and thoroughly. I don't like to forget any details, (and with mommy brain, let's be honest, there are times I do). I like things done immediately and on time, early would even be better! I have very high expectations, for the people around me, and for myself. And this leaves me...overwhelmed at times.
So, what do I do when I'm overwhelmed? Honestly? Oh dear, I guess I do have to be completely honest here, right? Well in a perfect world I would stop and pray and breathe deeply, but the world isn't perfect and neither am I. So sometimes I say things I regret, I get impatient, I get mad at myself, I get frustrated with the little people who I am caring for, I get annoyed that John can't seem to multi-task like I can, and the imperfect list goes on, and I get more overwhelmed.
God has been teaching me to practice what I preach and start living out my beliefs. I have a lot of head knowledge about God's Word and what I am supposed to do and I need to start living it. If I want to leave behind a legacy (like Suzette wrote about this week) than I better start by changing my attitude and doing what Jesus would do.
I love the verse that says, "Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication let your requests be made known to God and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and lives." Philippians 4:6
When I am overwhelmed all I want is peace. I want God's peace. It surpasses all understanding. In other words, there is no earthly reason why I should have peace at the moment, but I have it because I know the God of the universe loves me and is in total control even when I am totally out of control. I want God's peace to guard my heart and my life. I want to have a peaceful home. I want my kids to feel peaceful. I want them to trust God in difficult, overwhelming situations, and so I need to model that.
Another great verse (Matthew 11:29) I love that talks about how we can give our burdens to Jesus. He says, "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." I want rest for my soul. And only Jesus is capable of giving it to me. I need to let my "control freak" in me relax and learn from Jesus. Even Jesus got away from the crowds and the busyness of life and escaped away to be alone with God.
What do I do when I am so overwhelmed? Well, I'm going to bring my prayer requests before God. I'm going to ask for peace in stressful situations, and I'm going to meet with God and learn from Him.
What will you do?